remember that time a popular youtuber (whom I’d already had an emotionally manipulative & sexually abusive relationship with) wrote really vulgar, inappropriate slash fanfiction about my friends and I under a false name
and then revealed to me that he had written at 7am while filming me without my knowledge or consent in a room full of people while they all laughed
then posted it onto his youtube channel (still without me knowing I’d been filmed) for all of his viewers and other friends to laugh it up while publicly humiliating me
and allowing people to quote it to me and remind me of it for years to come, making me deeply uncomfortable.
hahahahaha yeah that was a good time
I LOVE being put in a position where I have to pretend something doesn’t bother me (or completely disturb me, like this whole thing did) so that I don’t end up looking dramatic or like I don’t understand fun. Love it.